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Disheveled here in this place called San Diego

Ohh, ohhh, oh and I know

At any time I can go

Anywhere....I only wanna come to you, though

A Kindred Spirit

Quite refreshing.

Like a breath of country air, drop of water from a moutain spring.

Just a dwindling fairy tale in this urban decay.

 

A memory handed down ever more seldomly as the generations stray.

Technology, ever patient, quietly takes over.

Years, lives, eras, memories defeatedly grow shorter.

The end, the beginning, unsung revolution encroaches.

Abhorred and unheeded premonition, end of days incessantly approaches.

No Space to Blog

ORIGINALLY POSTED:    Saturday, September 06, 2008
  

It's been some time since I've blogged, I know. So long that it's being brought to my attention, and when asked why, all I can say is that I'm in No Space to Blog. Yes, it's true, but as shocking as it may be, this woman who's usually overflowing with thoughts formed into neat little sentence buckets has suffered a drought. With the lack of inspirational clouds, there has been no rain drop words, and the proverbial well has been dipping dry. Man, this land is becoming baron......And I'm so thirsty.

Very late one night (or quite early in the morning, depending on perception, not definition) there was a very brief shower, just a teaser really, so I hadn't made the time to blog it, since the drought continued like nothing had happened. But tonight.....This night I'm praying for more, doing a rain dance begging for relief. So, as an offering to the sky of insight, I put this out there and hope for change.


Took a pre-dawn cruise searchin' 4 peace within. Scenery blew past as though without a care and before long i rolled to a stop.

A glance over my right shoulder, a house. A dark, lonely house. YOUR house. A full driveway but still lonely. Although I miss u so...I was weak. I drove away & reached the safety of home just in time.....

Inside I quickly duck, to escape the sun's rays on my cheeks, from my tears twisting the rays of light into brilliant prisms and blinding me. For seein' things as they truly are must be the most painful form of relief.

Speechless

ORIGINALLY POSTED:   Monday, May 26, 2008  

Stir.....Stir.....Stirry Stir
Under the cover of closed eyes and sleepy breaths
Still somewhere between sleep and stretch
I know you're there
In acknowledgment, a semi-conscious purrrr

So close to me I feel you near
the hair on my neck rises
goosebumps cover all my skin only the blanket disguises
"I love you...."
Just loud enough for me to hear

Warm breath on my face
butterflies n my tummy
Toes curl, feet begin to move happily
my heart's skippin beats
with your fingers the curves of my body you trace

Sleepy dreamy eyes open, adjust to the light
I feel the blankets move
you snuggle in, form to my every groove
tinglies thru my entire body
our chemistry electric, all is just right

corners of my mouth turn up, i shiver just a bit
you make me giggle & beg with little noises for more
Of you, the only, the one I adore
together here we are amazing
nothing in the world is better than the way we fit

I love you....The deepest part of my soul heard
Hold you closer, I bite my lip
content, you too, never loosen your grip
Cuz I love the way your touch reaches the deepest parts of me
& tells me everything without a word.

If I have my way, I'll wake up like this everyday.

NiteLite

ORIGINALLY POSTED:  Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Is it dark in your closet

Do you keep the door closed tight

Lean on it with your shoulder while you lock it

Are you afraid something might

Slip out of the darkness

exposing, Spilling, you onto the floor

or are you concerned that when you're least expecting

someone might open the door

The door to your closet...

The place where you hide.

Where you are all alone.

In all your depth and true desire, the things you keep inside.

The deepest rooted shadows

all the things you can't outwardly be

The things you aren't allowed

to let anyone see

What's in there lurking in the dark

So black as moonless night

if i felt your raw bare soul

would I tremble with fright?

Crawl to your closet on my knees

Press my face to the floor

This doesn't scare me

Peer through the crack under the door

In the stillness, senses heightened

I hear you thinking, wondering,

can she feel it

i'm enlightened

Your mind is rolling

She'll run away, afraid of this dark

She'll never look back

the click of heels is how this time will be marked

No, no, no, my love....I won't flee

To Revel in your darkest secrets

let you see me

bask in the deepest of you

all the unsaid, already known, it's just right

It doesn't have to be dark anymore, it's true

For I, I am your NiteLite.

Letting Go

ORIGINALLY POSTED:  Friday, December 07, 2007 

I try to do the things I use to do
But still I find I'm only looking 'round for you
The people you use to work with at your old bar
I can tell they're wonderin' just where you are
Maybe you'll walk right through that door
Just the thing we've all been looking for

But you don't….And that's good

Because where would I run, where would I hide
I couldn't stand to look into your eyes

I lay awake, alone at night
I squeeze my eyes shut and hope that I just might
Finally drift off to sleep and sometimes I do
But you're haunting me, I dream of you
Maybe one time I'll wake up and you'll really be here
Holding me tight, I feel your heartbeat, you're so near

But I don't…..And I cry

Because thinking of you and the good times we had
I wonder what happened, it's driving me mad

I put away all the photos and reminders of us
I gently hide them away, deep down I feel I must
Preserve the precious memories that we made
How special it once was, I never want that to fade
I wish I could stand to leave it out all along
This time around I'm just not that strong

So I don't…..And I'm weak

Because my heart's broken, my soul is bruised
Realizing the dreams I had for us will never come true

Someday down the road I know I'll see you again
I really do miss you, you were my very best friend
I wonder what will happen when that time arrives
Will I be strong, or will I run and hide
I want to call you, hear your voice even over the phone
Together make it work, without you I'm so alone

But we don't…..I wish we could

Because all my life I truly never knew
Anyone capable of making me feel the way you use to

So thank you for all that you've given me
I believe in you, I know you'll become everything you've wanted to be
I hope that every now and then, you'll stop and think of me
And remember how much I love you, happily
You'll never know just how much you've changed me
I sometimes wish I could just let it go, be free

But I won't…...I just can't

Because when you're in love that's the hardest part
Letting go of a broken heart